This is not a fun post to write, but it should be written. This is not a fun post to read, but it should be read.
Recently, I watched my first debate of this political season. I don’t watch these things because they’re ridiculous, and I was proven right. Here are a group of adults, screaming and harping on one another, all stumbling to talk over the next person, even though they’re supposed to be united against a common cause. It looked ridiculous.
It also looks a lot like many comment sections on some autistic accounts on social media I follow. It looks like many comment sections on my social media posts on autism. Yes, we all see the opposite camp throwing shade and insults at us, being unwittingly (or wittingly) ableist, dismissing our views, and trying to gaslight us. I’m not talking about them, I’m talking about us.
Infighting is a major problem within the autistic community, right now. The onset of social media has given many autists an outlet to be vocal for the first time about their experiences and views with/on our neurotype.
It has also provided a possibly large audience to hear these experiences. When we encounter a large audience, we must always expect criticism. What we don’t expect is for the criticism to come from our own community, those who share our experiences and are advocating for the same outcomes.
Just like within any community, there are splinter groups in the autistic community. Just like within any community, these groups disagree with one another. Some autists want to be called autistic people, some autists want to be called people with autism; some autists want to stay masked, some push for radical unmasking.
Some people live lives others don’t agree with. In this day and age, when opinions are so freely disseminated via social media, everyone has one about everything, and from what I can see, us autists tend to be vastly more opinionated about our condition, our lives, and our experiences than others are with theirs.
And why shouldn’t we be? I have no contention with feeling strongly and speaking passionately about being autistic. I firmly believe we are the only ones who have the direct knowledge and experience with the condition to be considered experts.
I don’t think just because someone has a PhD, that they are an expert. They may know all about autism, but they don’t know what it’s really like to experience it.
We have been bullied and chastised for both our neurology and our opinions about our neurology. We have been beaten into corners with sticks our whole lives. We’ve been silenced and ignored. Of course, we are going to be passionate about our side of the story, and we have to understand the outcomes of this passion wielded in the wrong direction.
Many autists have language and/or communication disorders. One way these disorders manifest themselves is impulsivity. It happens with me, and I’ve watched it happen with many others.
We’ve been hit with the stick so many times, when someone shows it to us, we bare our teeth. These impulsive, knee-jerk, emotional reactions are completely normal in our context, but we don’t seem to see them as such. One knee-jerk leads to another, and another, and into perpetuity until we find ourselves where we are today: arguing with each other when we should be united against our common enemy.
Here’s the deal: you have a vitriolic argument with someone within the community who uses person-first language (“with autism”) when you use identity-first language (“autistic”), and it leaves you both red with anger.
If you were to see this person getting ganged up on by a bunch of ableist parents, are you going to remember your argument about which way to refer to autism correctly and decide that person deserves to get bullied by neurotypicals?
If you are, then I don’t want to be in your community, and I would hope anyone reading this would feel the same way.
In a five-year-old podcast for Spectrum Life, Karen Krejcha says, “One of the biggest challenges we are facing is a lack of respect and acceptance from those who should be allies.” I interpret this statement two ways: 1) We should be our own allies and fighting amongst each other over splinter issues damages this ability. 2) Our allies should be parents, clinicians, clinical directors, researchers, professors, etc.
Currently, they are not our allies because they don’t respect or accept us. Why should they? They see us fighting amongst ourselves and we look like the damned debates on TV. No one wants to vote for any of us. No one respects a team lacking unity. On the converse, no one respects a team more when it plays together in spite of its differences.
People in our community feel bullied by all sides: Not only by the ableists, but also by those within their own community. Then the people who are accused of being bullies are feeling bullied by those handing out the accusations. We’re confusing fighting with bullying.
Bullying is a pattern of aggression based upon an imbalance of power; fighting is when two people engage in negative, aggressive behavior with the desire to inflict injury. Within our community, I see very little actual bullying. What I see is fighting.
People don’t like certain people for various reasons, and I get that. Some personalities rub other personalities the wrong way. I get that, too. I experience that on both ends. An NT-ally friend was talking to me about a popular autistic Instagram account, and I was like, “I’m pretty sure she doesn’t like me.”
This is all ok. It is what it is. It becomes a problem when people start trading insults or jabs. I have been guilty of this more times than one. I’m ashamed of some of my behavior towards fellow autists in the past. I sincerely apologize for it.
I don’t want to live in a call-out culture, or a comments-section culture. That’s their culture, not mine.
When the bullets start whizzing by our heads and the bombs are whistling down from the sky, does it really matter whether or not we agree on nomenclature? Aren’t we all in the same foxhole? I need to start acting like it. We need to start acting like it.
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Spot on! We need to stick together and not be separated by disagreements over minutae.
Excellent article. As a parent of a 48 year-old son Ben with nonverbal autism who has used Facilitated Communication for over 25 years, I consider myself an ally. I have tried to help others as an advocate for 40 years and I strongly believe it is worthwhile to share information.
Factually wrong to see “very little actual bullying” I mean what? I only want to be in your culture if you automatically always think that rejection + purges are bullying.
Whether to have rejection + purges is exactly one of the scene’s divides. Truces are only practically possible to make on terms of no rejection. So to make truces, rejections have to be undone, and if the rejecters’ egos stick on not doing that, then it’s the rejecters who carry the blame for no truce. Victims of wrong are never to blame for declining to live in a wronfed social position meekly acceptingly.
One would think, I’d suppose, that a group of folks bent on insisting on their right to be respected for their diversity … would want to show the rest of us just how it’s done, no?
There is a great war brewing, it’s already here,we have to stand tall and strong,as One to withstand it.
Great article. When I decided to first enter the ND community online I was shocked first by the jabs thrown between autistics. I found that sort of thing more often than I found NT’s going after autistics. I hope we can all learn to work together better and set the example for acceptance and respect. Thank you for sharing.
Thank you for this article. When I first connected with autistic people via social media I was so happy because for once I found some people I had affinity with with many similar happiness and challenge. I quickly learned how aggressive and violent people are—as mentioned, even more so than neurotypical people. Sadly these dynamics may take the movement down eventually.
I also bring up how it affects our very neurology itself to be ganged up on for saying/doing things that in the autistic community are means for exclusion: ie, I am a person with autism, I am medium functioning, etc etc. I had no awareness that these fights took place among autistic people–for a year I was part of it until they ganged up on me for what I do not know, but it was filled with vitriol. The harassment took an effect on me definitely. Especially that those who do the bullying are often at the top of the institutions, forcing the discussion. After months of being part of it, it affected my mind. I could not discern what was and wasn’t true outside of what the group said and I would defend them to the full, arguing their arguments, thinking their thoughts, doing their actions until there stopped being a me at all. My thoughts morning noon and night were about the group and whether I might attract or offend them, whether I had unknowingly done something wrong, and whether the people I saw doing the harassing would do it to me. As someone who usually puts my opinion out there, I stopped even talking about what I believed, stopped arguing, and stopped believing in my own thought processes. It is a form of stealing–the stealing of independent thought! And people in the “community” don’t recognize it–they are also being brain washed. Just having a thought of my own, without the assuages of the group, became terrifying to me. It created a kind of mental illness, and it’s so very very wrong.