I’m a nonspeaking autistic teen. Seeing my sister leave for college a few years ago did not feel like a big deal at the time. What I cared about was trying to take over her room. Having more time with my parents was also something of an added bonus.
Cut to spring 2020.
My sister was home, my school was closed, and all I could think about was when all this pandemic was over, would I still like living at home? With so much time together with no where to go, I started wishing that I lived somewhere else.
When my sister moved back to college this fall, envy ate at my body and soul. I felt the gap between me and other eighteen-year-olds widening into an abyss.
The stuff I’ll never do chased around in my brain in loops. Graduate high school? Nope. Go on a date? Nope. Drive a car? Nope. Move into a place with friends and no older adults? Definitely not.
What I imagine in my wildest dreams are things most kids take for granted. So now what should I do?
At this time I just don’t know.