There is a white label that reads "remove this label" on a light blue fabric. It is meant to symbolize the labels of high low functioning autistic person with autism on the autism spectrum. Also, it is referencing the labels of disorder, mental illness, and disability as they apply to autism asperger's aspie.

Disorder, Condition, or Disability: A Look at the Fables of Autism Labels4 min read

About eight years ago, I got a diagnosis that saved my life. At the age of 36, after three bedridden years filled with suicidal ideation, I found out that I am autistic. A formal, six-week evaluation confirmed that I was indeed, as many had long suspected, ‘different.’

Just like most folks do when they get a new diagnosis, I went into research mode. I knew I needed to educate myself about this new word in my life and I wanted to know everything I could about it. Finally, ‘different’ had a name, autism, and with this new label, an overwhelming sense of belonging flooded my life…or so I thought.

After months of reading all that I could find on autism and the experience of being autistic, I felt confident in my knowledge and understanding of it. By confident, I mean I had read and memorized the most current knowledge available about autism and had explored the varied opinions on the topic from the ‘experts.’

So much so, that I myself had become an expert with certifications in both autism and cognitive disorders. Thus, I know that when asked what autism is, meaning how is it categorized, the shortest response is always that it is a ‘neurodevelopmental disorder,’ but many would disagree, and rightfully so.

To begin, many would argue with the word disorder. Recent statistics from the CDC tell us that autism affects 1 in 59 children. With the knowledge that autism is a lifelong condition, we can only just begin to understand the actual number of people for whom autism is a reality.

With so many unaccounted for due to lack of supports, financial constraints, and language barriers, we can only assume that the actual number is even larger. At what point does it stop being a ‘disorder’ or a ‘condition,’ and simply become another way of being human?

How much of the population has must be diagnosed as autistic for the label ‘disorder’ to become the incorrect term? Moreover, since so many do not feel disordered by their autism, the label is inaccurate and perpetuates the stigma that autistic people are somehow broken.

For many, the alternative to autism being called a ‘disorder’ is to label it a ‘mental health condition,’ which doesn’t work any better. When we think of mental illness, we must remember that it is a human condition. Meaning, ALL brains have the capacity to develop a mental illness, autistic or not.

The categories for mental illness include mood disorders, anxiety disorders, personality disorders, psychotic disorders, eating disorders, trauma-related disorders, and substance abuse disorders. While many autistics suffer from one, or many, of these co-occurring mental illnesses, autism is not one of them.

Linked to genetics and neural connectivity, autism’s cause clearly lies in biology, not psychology. And yet, with so much of the ‘symptomology’ of autism mimicking challenges commonly categorized as psycho-social behaviors, it is easy to see why the ‘mental health condition’ label gets used.

As if those two labels weren’t enough of a burden, a diagnosis of autism brings with it another label, ‘disabled.’ Use of the word disabled in reference to autism is in many ways on point. Afterall, the hallmarks of being autistic are in direct opposition to the ‘rules’ of the society in which we live.

Our struggles with ‘social communication,’ our unique needs and habits, and our need for truth and honesty defy the codes of our current behavioral climate. In a world that values sameness, our very ‘difference’ is disabling. Still, most of us will tell you that we don’t feel disabled when our needs are met, but instead we mostly feel disabled by the society we live in. When allowed to live as our authentic selves, the label ‘disabled’ feels incongruous.

Even within autism itself, the labels have been perpetuated. Thrown around like insignificant adjectives are terms like ‘high-functioning’ and ‘nonverbal,’ though they do not at all describe the autistic experience.

Having been called ‘high-functioning’ myself, it’s inexactitude is as infuriating as it is damaging. While I might be ‘high-functioning’ on one day, the very next could find me having high support needs. Functioning can change on a moment-to-moment basis. Moreover, not all of us have visible, external challenges. Just because you cannot see the internal struggles, doesn’t mean that they do not impact functioning.

A similar case can be made for use of the term ‘nonverbal.’ Again, many folks who are ‘nonspeaking,’ selectively or situationally mute, or who use a device to communicate still have verbal cognizance. They are simply, even if temporarily, unable to use their mouth and voice to form words. It doesn’t mean that they do not have the ability to listen and comprehend.

Prior to my autism diagnosis, I hadn’t given labels, or their fables, much thought. They were just another way to categorize one’s observations. But once a label was put upon me, and I had to live with all the stigma that came with it, labels, and their accuracy, became incredibly important to me.

Afterall, I use some of these labels to describe myself. The ones I choose to use reflect not only how I see myself, but how I want the world to see me. Years ago, I would have declared unabashedly that autism is a ‘neurodevelopmental disorder,’ but all these labels later, and I know it’s not that simple.

Yes, autism is neurodevelopmental, but it also plays a role in my mental health. Sure, there are some days when autism is disabling and some days when it renders me mute. And, of course, days when only I know I am struggling and days when I need all the help that I can get. This fluctuating dichotomy is too unpredictable, too complex, and too human to be rigidly defined by one single term, leaving us drowning in the fables our labels create.

 

4 Comments

  1. Your post really spoke to me. I was diagosed a little over two years ago at the age of 43. I travel a lot (other than now during the pandemic) so I ask for an accomodation from Air Canada. I ask to preboard. I usually volunteer the fact that I am autistic. I don’t know if the airline considers it a disability or not. I’ve struggled with anxiety and depression my entire adult life, so I probably consider my autism as the source of my mental health problems, though not one itself.

    1. Author

      Invisible disabilities are tough to travel with. I struggle the same way. I used to tell them but now I just dare them to ask. They often think I am Active Military rather than disabled lol

      Thank you for reading,
      Becca

  2. However, isn’t every mental condition based in biology? Like schizophrenia has a different wiring and bipolar as well? Like theres significant amount of grey matter especially in schizophrenic patients after a post mortem study. And definitely trauma change is wiring of the brain as well, especially from when a child is early on.

    And NO, I don’t think I’m disabled by society because I will need it in order to achieve my goals. I really want to work as a film director, screen writer and actor in an order to do that I will need great social skills, which has kind of impaired me in the past and I will need to talk, unlike other jobs where you don’t need to talk. And frankly, I am glad that I am in the society I am in now because I would rather function in the Neurotypical society (it’s not like I need accommodations anyway) and work on my anxiety which intersect with OTHER issues to benefit from that and thrive from my work!


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