Poetry: Crossed Wire’s Song1 min read

mind not to scale
“mind not to scale.” Ra Vashtar, Mixed Media, 2020

Crossed Wire’s Song

I will never be not crazy,

hooked up with a dif­ferent wire.

I don’t run elec­tri­cally.

No switch on a wild­fire.

 

Broken glass and oil slicks are like dia­monds if you let them be.

Mother looks into her baby’s eyes and prays he won’t turn out like me.

Don’t feel too much,

With heart and touch.

Don’t fly too close to the sun.

Think inside the box pro­vided,

But don’t be single minded,

Keep the order.

Keep the peace.

Keep your­self quiet.

Go to sleep.

Learn to walk, but never try to run.

 

I will never not be dif­ferent,

I’m an earth­quake and a storm,

Sometimes things just need a shaking,

–Light through every hole I tore.

 

When I finally get to heaven, I know there’s a place that’s set for me,

God will wipe the dirt away, say better things were meant for me.

The human race,

Called me last place,

Judged I was unfit to run.

It’s a system near per­fected,

To deem dif­ferent defec­tive,

Go to work.

Go to school.

Make sure to follow

Social rules.

One size does not fit everyone.

 

I will never not be like this,

seems a ter­minal dis­ease.

I will die not knowing normal,

But I’ll live beau­ti­fully.

 

-Ra Vashtar

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  1. I notice you have a lot of cre­den­tials Ra — are you Egyptian as well. Vashtar a funny name, is it eastern European; are you familiar with…

    https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sredni_Vashtar

    …its a short story by Saki (Hector Hugh Munro). Wonderful fellow…

    https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Saki

    … tal­ented hand for essays and short story, which I love — that unfor­tu­nately he died too early, by a sniper of all things. Autism and sniping there’s a sub­ject of a poem.

    It took me longer to read those cre­den­tials of yours than your poem. But I did like it. and I can see your con­fi­dent in your­self and your eccen­tricity *cough*.

    I’m a poet myself. My cre­den­tials are that I am white, but I don’t think I’m priv­i­leged; I’m old and an Aspergian with PDA ten­den­cies. Oh yeah I’m het­ero­sexual is that bad in a poet and visual artist? I know I’m out of the rainbow and uni­corns club, but hell, I can still have common ground as liking your poems and I like your pic­ture.
    Yellow is a favorite color of mind it sig­ni­fies enlight­en­ment don’t ya know.

    Anyway well done, keep on keeping on…

    1. Hello!

      I’m glad you enjoyed my painting and my poem!

      I am not eth­ni­cally Egyptian, I am mostly of European descent, but I have a great love for the cul­ture of Ancient Egypt and the mythology of the Middle East.

      Yes, I’m aware of Saki’s story and enjoy it a great deal!

      I sup­pose I don’t con­sider my biog­raphy to be cre­den­tials, just extra infor­ma­tion about myself should someone be inter­ested in learning more about me out­side of my writing here. I’ve had people reach out to dis­cuss topics in my biog­raphy so I have found it to be a great ice breaker for people with sim­ilar back­grounds! (I wouldn’t say I’m exactly con­fi­dent in myself either, far from it, but I am willing to put myself out there if it can help others feel more con­fi­dent about them­selves!)

      Being het­ero­sexual isn’t bad at all, nor does it take away from the impact of some­one’s cre­ative con­tri­bu­tions! I know a lot of artists and writers who are het­ero­sexual and I have the utmost respect for their craft. There is no list of traits that make someone a better artist, and I love seeing art from people of all walks of life.

      I tend to men­tion my back­ground in the LGBTQ+ com­mu­nity because it can be a com­fort to those who are ques­tioning to know they are in a safe space to talk about the issues that specif­i­cally impact those who are not straight. Even though I am not always con­fi­dent or sure of myself, I’ve been told many times that knowing my back­ground has given an inter­esting per­spec­tive when viewing my work, and can open dif­fer­ently avenues of inter­pre­ta­tion. So I like to make that infor­ma­tion avail­able.

      I hope this answers a few of your ques­tions. Thank you for your feed­back!

      -Ra

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